My Writing Journey

Where’d She Go?

It’s a sad state when you make plans and are excited about all you plan to do, but then the all part of that planning begins to overwhelm you. You know? I somehow doubt I’m the only one who’s “been there, done that.”

When Life Happens (1)

So, where did I disappear to? I know I’ve been away from blogging ( … away from email, away from far too much!) for too long, but I’m getting my head in the game and hoping to shuck the overwhelm from my mind.

I took my eyes off the “break the goal into smaller pieces” advice I like to give and just saw the big picture of everything I need to accomplish this year. In the midst, a lot the things I’ve needed to get done have been … not so much set aside as slowed down to a snail’s pace.

That means I’ve put off getting some very important work done that involves other people. I think I feel the worst about that. I absolutely hate, detest, LOATHE letting people down, especially the people I’ve made a commitment to.

Here’s what I’ve got going on right now:

  1. Interviews to compile for ASF Short Story Contest Winners!
    1. These people are awesome, and I cannot not get this done.
    2. The double-negative is necessary to establish just how very important number one is.
  2. Revisions and edits to send to participants of the ASF Short Story Contest
    1. This is super important because these stories will be included in an awesome anthology that all proceeds from sales will go to Compassion International.
    2. This will also require formatting and design work (but who doesn’t love a good day or two of formatting?).
    3. We need these done and the stories completed before publication, and I’d like to get that done before November.
  3. MUST finish my Chronicles prequel story for publication.
  4. BLOGBATTLE is coming back! I just need to get my act together. Seriously.
  5. I need to write the sci-fi story I’ve been putting off while I work on other things, but I need to get it done so that I can hopefully tempt a particularly super-awesome agent with my splendid writing skilllzzzzzzzzz. (I hope you didn’t just fall asleep)
  6. I want to get at least 50,000 words of book 4 in Chronicles of the Twelve Realms written in November (NaNoWriMo will be my best friend that month. Don’t tell Sheila!).
  7. I want to write a play (a really cool one) for my daughter’s high school to perform.
    1. This I’d like to do this summer so they can perform it in the fall, but I might not have time… *sigh*

That doesn’t seem like THAT much, does it?

Oh, and on top that, I’ve been given the opportunity to work at a software design tech company called IntelliTect as a recruiter and to help with social media marketing-type stuff. I’m thrilled that they hired me, and I feel completely unqualified for the job. But like I said before, I hate disappointing people.

Want to know what I love? I love encouraging others, meeting new people, being kind, working hard and seeing the fruit of my labor, and smiling. I really love smiling. I need to do it more.

How about you? What do you love? What makes you smile? What have you been working on? I miss talking with all the great people I’ve met through blogging. We really need to connect more.

 

 

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43 thoughts on “Where’d She Go?”

  1. You know who makes me smile? YOU! You have got a TON of stuff going on and don’t need to feel bad one bit that it’s going slower than you’d like or you can’t do everything you want. This is something I battle all the time and really have to lecture myself about far more frequently than I’d care to admit! I’m super excited about all the plans and projects you have going, and however you decide to divide and conquer or reorder will be just fine. As far as the anthology goes, I am happy to help in any way I can and I only hope you won’t let it be a stress for you. While I can only speak for me, I certainly don’t have an expected “deadline.” I firmly believe that whenever every “i” is dotted and “t” crossed and all the packaging comes together … whenever that is … will be the absolute, exact, perfect time it was meant to go out. Until then, I’m here to help however I can and I’m definitely cheering you on for every piece of your big ol’ list! Thank you for being such an encouragement and blessing to me!

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  2. It is alright to say “no”. I’m still learning, but I have tried to make a start.
    If you don’t take care of yourself first, you can’t help others. β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘Don’t beat yourself up, okay?

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  3. There really is a lot on your plate! I know what you mean though, it’s so easy to make plans and goals and then before you know it there’s a mountain of stuff that needs doing. At the start of the year I had plenty of writing goals, but I’ve barely made it through any of them but one. And my poor blog is suffering from neglect. *sigh* On the upside though, I’ve been doing a lot more offline, meeting new people and helping out. I guess I just need to find that perfect balance between offline and online things, now. πŸ™‚

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  4. Curious question you ask. I saw free and naturally uneven patches of grass, rudely and abruptly interrupted and abbreviated by swathes of grey pavement. In other words, I think I saw a lot of me and my difficulty writing all around me. How about you?

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    1. What?! That was beautiful, and I could totally picture it. Then the comparison to your difficulty writing…it’s almost like there was no difficulty at all! πŸ˜€ Me? Nature has been elusive on this particular day, and I don’t know that my attempts at describing what I did see would match your skill. πŸ™‚ The only thing that comes to mind is the gentle sweep of the enormous flag next to the freeway and how it seemed to sway in a peaceful dance on the hot breeze.

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      1. Rachael, you make me laugh! You seem to do so effortlessly what I fear I won’t be able to do when asked. Earlier today, when I first read your question, I wondered β€œWhat on earth? What do I look at? What do I say? What good will it do?” (that should tell you something about how untrustworthy my head is). Yet you seemed to say almost the same and then you unfurled your lovely enormous flag. Write, Rach. Just write. Oh, how I wish I could! And thank you for the warmth of your words. They’re a reminder of what songs my muse used to sing!

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        1. See, I think you’re right. We aren’t so different. πŸ™‚ You should do the same. Just write. Just tell us what is under your feet. In fact, walk barefoot and let yourself experience the gravelly roughness of the cement’s grains, crushed by a million feet and ferocious weather. How do the the pinpricks of pain make you feel? Are you alive? Does it make you want to wilt to the ground and never take another step? Just write whatever comes to you, and eventually I think your muse will be drawn to you. She’ll hear your song and come like a sailor to a siren. πŸ™‚ ❀

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          1. That is an idea, Rach. I will leave room for it. In fact, at your prompting, I took off my shoes and walked barefoot down the block. I won’t mention that my unsoiled feet cursed you. I’ve never been one to write on command. Sometimes people have paid me, but I’d rather write from blood than from sweat and lately, there’s been no letting. I like what you say about my muse being drawn to me because of my writing, but how to begin without soft assurances, I just don’t know. A bit of a Catch-22, I suppose? Surely, finding someone with the gift of encouragement isn’t difficult…and yet it certainly seems to be. Have you made progress in completing your to-do?

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            1. Haha! Now your feet have bled, so the cursed things could help the flow from you pen? Yes, that drawing of your muse might very well be in the midst of a Catch-22! If you build it, they will come? πŸ™‚ I have made some progress, but only a smidge! Better than none. πŸ™‚

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  5. Wow Rachel. Just reading your to-do/need-to-get-done/want-to-get-done/like-to-get-done list makes me tired! Many items on your list involve pleasing and/or meeting the needs of others. Self-care is very important. Take time for yourself and enjoy life. It goes by far too fast.

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    1. So true, John, and while I love pleasing other, and meeting commitments I’ve made, it’s almost impossible to be successful if I’m a nervous wreck! Self-care is a must. ❀ Thank you! What is something you do to relax and take care of yourself?

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      1. I’m an avid (more like addicted) pickleball player. The game combines elements of badminton, tennis and ping-pong – just google it. It’s great exercise, plus it’s a very social game, with time to chat with other players between games. I’ve met many interesting and inspiring people! Besides that, I do some swimming and gym workouts. I do reserve time to write, and while I may be writing less, i think i’m writing better.

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        1. More doesn’t translate to better! I’m sure you’re right about that. Exercise is so good for the brain, and writers who their brains a lot, so keep up the good work! I’ve heard of pickleball but never looked it up. I will now. πŸ™‚ Swimming is by far my favorite exercise!

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  6. *hugs* overwhelm is never fun! I’m glad to see a post from you again. πŸ™‚ I get overwhelmed really easily, and panic, and decide that avoiding it all is a good solution. Which it always turns out not to be. Sometimes a break is needed though, just to get your head around things. I am a massive fan of breaking things down into steps, it’s the only way I get anything done. My writing goals haven’t gone to plan this year, they still aren’t. But I’m trying to take what comes and know that eve if I’m taking small steps, it’s better than nothing. (Sometimes though I just want to sit down and cry cos I don’t have enough hours in the day.) :/

    Good luck with your list – I’m looking forward to getting my hands on the anthology. πŸ˜€

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    1. Oh, girl! You and me. I’m sitting here, reading your blog and seeing what you’re doing on Instagram, and all the while I’m thinking “V’s got it together! That girl is on track!” πŸ™‚ Like Jean told me, don’t be too hard on yourself! You’re definitely making progress. On another thought, maybe we can move to Mars together and enjoy the slightly longer days for all our writerly needs?

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      1. Perception is an amazing thing. I often look at all the things you’ve accomplished and are accomplishing and wish I were further along the track. πŸ™‚ We all have our struggles, I suppose. And yes, moving to Mars sounds like quite a good idea! 😁 Longer days and less distractions. 😁

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  7. I can definitely relate to your dilemma! I made many goals for this summer and then I sprained my ankle, had a small oral surgery, broke my phone and let’s just say none of those goals are close to being completed. However, if it helps I found that- me being an overly organized person- I started a bullet journal and set out a list of what I want done when. It really helps with all of the to do lists and stress. πŸ™‚
    -TTFN, somebody, somewhere over the rainbow

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    1. Oh man! I’m sorry about your ankle and the oral surgery! I’m sure it doesn’t compare, but I had my second-ever set of fillings done almost a month ago. Keep rockin’ it! I love to be organized. I haven’t tired a bullet journal, but sometimes fall into the trap of making lists about making lists, so I shy away from journaling tasks. What is your biggest goal for the summer?

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  8. Your new job sounds awesome. Be careful not to overdo it. Been there, done that. Make sure you enjoy the summer with your family and maybe you and your daughter can write the play together. Hugs. xo

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    1. It actually is pretty great! I’m a contractor who’s been hired experimentally based on my limited social media experience. It’s really a great way for me to practice my skills and get paid while doing it. Plus I get to meet new people by reaching out to them about working for the company. It would be so easy for me to burn out on all this stuff, though. I will definitely heed your advice! Where have your travels taken you lately? HUGS!

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          1. Not yet, but I have a writing-sized gap about to appear in my schedule… Perhaps I’ll take a leaf out of your book, and write myself a list first. I think I need to prioritise.

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      1. Short on words, Rach. I lost my muse about 8 months ago, haven’t been able to find a new one and without, I can’t seem to write. There’s no flow. Part of your explanation for being away was feeling overwhelmed at all you had to get done, yet your todo list seems quite long. Could it be TOO long?

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        1. I hope the muse finds you soon! It’s hard to be a writer and feel unable to write. I think that’s what most people call writer’s block, but I think the overwhelm I feel is really what writer’s block is. And yes, you’re probably right about the too long todo list! haha I’m working on whittling it down to the essential bits, though, and then I’ll get back on track. See anything interesting in nature today by any chance?

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